Hey guys, my name is Marchman and I'm a youtuber who is struggling, and losing subscribers. I don't want to promote myself guys, but I want you to know what is going on. I seen the video from George and I notice how amazing and wonderful he is and I decided to post this because his amazing inspiration. On youtube I focus my channel on gaming and I feel disgusted by my own channel. There are so many days where I wanna just quit and never go back to it, and there are days that I feel like I'm just hitting my own video to give me views. I'm actually embarrassed because I tried to promote my channel, and I used google ads to promote myself. To be honest guys, I feel like it was a waste of time because I never received any good feedback. I basically bought my views and now I feel really bad and stupid guys. I also do giveaways and shoutouts and when Sunday comes, or the giveaways come I loss a dramatic amount of subscribers, and it's just devastating to see that because after all my hard work it gets thrown away. I thought people liked my channel because of the content, but that wasn't the case. I couldn't believe how my own friend from when I was 9 years old even unsubscribe . To be honest guys, this is not a scam or lie I'm serious even typing this is heartbreaking and makes me want to cry, because I just want to interact with a lot of people and play PSN because guys I don't have alot of friends and that's all I want. I don't want subscribers I just want people that I could talk and play with, and even send a friendly text. I did have friends before, but they used me for my good deed and that's exactly what some of my subscribers are doing. I just wish someone could understand me, and acknowledge that I'm not a toy, but someone who truly loves his subscribers, even though I never seen them before. Guys I love people and people take advantage of me, and that's what hurts me the most. I gave away a $50 gift card on my channel, and the ones that didn't win got upset, and I ended up losing over 40 subscribers in 3 days and I was terrified. Then I seen George's video, and I just wanted to lay it all out to you guys because I don't know what to do. I'm just so confused. (YouTube: Marchman_97)